update

4 ppl think its a mistake
one of which is a prof at nus
another one used to lecture there
if it really is
then good
it'll all be solved sooner than i thought it would
BUT
i'll be so mad with them
which i already am lah
just that im capable of gettting more angry
im dead serious bout stuff like that

had i nice convo with a friend
a good fren
whos already there
told her how i never expected to be this affected
told her how i feel so utterly down
and i asked her would she be?
coz i know ppl have told me to move on from the emotions
some have said im getting too stuck in it
some have even used the phrase 'self sympathy'
and she assured me
all these emotions
were normal
that she too would have felt like that
even now too
she said she felt like crying
coz it was just not right

its amazing how the first reaction i get
from people tat i tell
its utter SHOCK
as in really SHOCK
no one can believe it
everyone either thinks sths wrong with the system
or its utterly ridiculous
if they are shock
imagine how i felt when i got the news
beyond shock