scream.run. scream

urgh
urgh
argh

im not useless
im not some girly piece of shit


i make mistakes???
so??
an no im not dimwitted


so what am i suppose to do
be pissed?
be hurt?
in silence....

and seriously
im not an innocent crappy idiot!!!!
im not INNOCENT!!!

sometimes i feel like running away
any1 wanna join me?
run and run and run
to somewhere really far
and find out who i am
disappear to discover
and then come back
a person no one would hate
a person i wont hate

sometimes my heads all noisy
really noisy
i cant seem to silence it
its just getting worst
all the thoughts
god knows where they come from
theres no more space in my mind
yet these thoughts
they keep comming
ahhhhh
shuttup!!!!!!


i wanna run
i wanna hurt me
i wanna scream
scream
till its silent
both outside and inside
:(
is the end drawing near?
i wish
im fed up
im fed up with trying and trying
im fed up with falling and falling
with disappointing everyone
with hurting- me and others
with being confused
with wanting waht isnt needed
with making mistakes
with not pleasing him...
and im tired