anger?

ANGST
its bubbling
somewhere under my exterior
an interior so DARK......
an interior so familiar

im angry
worst
i cant nail the reason behind it
its a concoction of emotions
feeelings
thoughts
perceptions
all negative of course
and its bubbling up
now close to the surface
and im going to explode

but that rose remains deep in my heart
the one that was touched by
the most radiant light ever
just a couple of weeks ago
and that rose
remains strong
on a cushion of serenity and beauty
and it consumes this anger
tho not all of it
why?
its leaving me some to handle
so that i can learn

sigh-ness
i hate in when im angry
and worst still
cant find a single reason for it
coz theres just too many
to make matters worst
i realised i have to start studying
as in mugging
else i'll fall back
and i have sooo much planning
im freaking out!
those of u who knoe we well
u know what i become when im freaking out
and its absolutely scary
no no
the 'A level' stress panicky rekha must not come back
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
and HE better help...he just better.