*pouts*

horrid horrid monday
SWAY! is the word
come, let me tell all of you a sad sad story

sunday:
felt a little sick
my tonsils were definitely inflammed
there was pus on it
tasted blood when i swallowed once in a while
ate only an apple the whole day
went to class
felt HORRID after that

monday:
not any better
didnt sleep the whole night coz the pain in my throat was BAD
temperature went up a little
cough
flu
HORRID

but its not being sick thats horrid. every1 falls sick once in awhile...its being SWAY, absolutely SWAY thats disturbing

continuation:
the plan:
see the doctor
go to school
im suppose to have my first sociology tutorial today
2pm-4pm
followed by my total war lecture
4pm-8pm
didnt know how i was going to survive from 2-8 w/o any substantial break
so i planned to go for tutorial and skip lecture

went to the doc
he gave me my meds
said my throats badly inflammed
gave me a different kind of antibiotic
went home
took the meds
changed
got ready to go for lunch then school
BUT
my eyes turned deep red
like some freaking dracula
my mum called up our doc
he said come back immediately
so we did
on the way
my eyes swelled
looked like some doll you will find in movies like 'chuckie'
my mum told the counter lady
can you make it fast, shes needs to go to school
the lady was like
what school?
university, said my mum
she replied
mad ah???your so sick!dont go!
errrrrrrrrrrrrrr
errrrrrrrrrrrrrr
PANIC!
PANIC PANIC PANIC!
i cant not go to school!
first tutorial, no friends in the class
bad bad idea to skip
1: bad impression
2: if there was an assignment given, i would never know!
3: miss out, and be lost
GRUNTS
my bro said...dont go!anw you look fightening
even aunty usha said...jst skip..it wld be crazy to go to sch

so i didnt go
and i feel soooo insecure
i have no way of finding out what went on
i need to email the tutor and ask if i can go for another slot
so that i dont miss out
and ask if theres any assignment
but guess what
i bloody hell dont know the tutors name!
so i have to email the department
my bro and niva said emailings the only thing i can do
ahhhhhh

now i seriously miss days in JC
at least you have friends!
and your not completely alone in some classes
so that if you skip a day
you just pick up the phone and call a friend
*POUTS*
sway..first tutorial
and rekhas missing
:(

study to be happy

come all ye ppl.lets take our minds to the grandeur of the elizabethan era and focus our very much dwindling brains to the splendour of the very person who coined the depths of the english language; shakespeare. as He once pointed out thru the voices of the characters of 'Macbeth', 'life is walking shadow which struts and frets..'

no, i'm not doing Macbeth now, neither am i doing shakespeare. But i surely am 'struting and fretting' across te stage of studies!

ok rekha. cut the crap

Right now as i'm typing, I am simple laying out the flowers and streamers for my very own catafalque.how lovely. and when i am done I shall lay my body on it, and peacefully devour every moment of my failures.....and then maybe when i am in hell...or with some luck, heaven, i shall write a book titled, 'rekhas many many failures in her first year at NUS.'

yes yes, i am crapping again am i?????

rekha is not suppose to be blogging
rekha is suppose to be studying
rekha is prob the only uni student not studying
and rekha is going to be lost next week
and rekha is not gng to get her points
and 4ys later
rekha is not going to achieve her aim of first class honours
now rekha is officially allowed to
SCREAM!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

okok.cannot.caonnaot cannot cannot
i am officially turning into a nerd.
jivis,, yes you JIVANAAH SUSEL DAYALAN
better make sure that i become a geek
so no more roaming around aimlessly around the campus
no more brownies with ice cream topped with gossipping
study study study
and oh, shall we be happy!

anger?

ANGST
its bubbling
somewhere under my exterior
an interior so DARK......
an interior so familiar

im angry
worst
i cant nail the reason behind it
its a concoction of emotions
feeelings
thoughts
perceptions
all negative of course
and its bubbling up
now close to the surface
and im going to explode

but that rose remains deep in my heart
the one that was touched by
the most radiant light ever
just a couple of weeks ago
and that rose
remains strong
on a cushion of serenity and beauty
and it consumes this anger
tho not all of it
why?
its leaving me some to handle
so that i can learn

sigh-ness
i hate in when im angry
and worst still
cant find a single reason for it
coz theres just too many
to make matters worst
i realised i have to start studying
as in mugging
else i'll fall back
and i have sooo much planning
im freaking out!
those of u who knoe we well
u know what i become when im freaking out
and its absolutely scary
no no
the 'A level' stress panicky rekha must not come back
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
and HE better help...he just better.

AY 2007/2008 ... freshman

alrite...week one has come
and gone
fridays my free day
yay
its called
'strategic planning when choosing modules'
if ur smart like me...u will also end up with long weekends
hehe

my modules this sem:
HY2216 : total war
HY1101E: Asia and the modern world
SC1101E: making sense of society
SE1101E: southeast asia, a changing region
PS1101E: Introduction to political science

gone for all except the first one
and its all good
no major complains bout any one of them
the weeks really relax
coz tutorials havent started
and we havent strated drowning in assignments and projects
but yeah
overall
i made good choices
the modules are all useful and fun..and the lecturers are good

the school?
its interesting how all the faculties have their individual characteristics
and where i come from
FASS
its colour...
silence?? NO WAY
its us
its me
arts students have their very individualistic sense of being
science have theirs
biz have theirs
...and the list goes on
the structure itself?
they can do better
but the old fashioned ambiance
that dawns upon you
once you step on the sch grounds
has a subtle sense of class
the idea of
'gentry of the old parish' i would say
and within the quiet walls
of the campus as a whole
a vague illustration of
social stratification can be seen
and i would say
at the peak of the pyramid
lies ....
FASS
hehe....
we rock lar....i have to admit...along with everyone else...
and to shift to my evil side
if u really cant consume the different 'colours' of FASS
STAY OUT!
like this guy in my soci lect
doing the module as a cross-faculty module
kills the ambiance of FASS with just one statement:
"har, must write essay one ah??"
AHHHHHHHHHHH
go away...shoo...shooo
go back to ur home
if u want to contaminate mine
sorry..evil i know
but in life there must always be a balance of good and evil
even in ourselves
hehe

university ... hmmmmm
its realy funny how u work your way up
one moment your a silly JCstudent
struggling...stress to the max
convinced that at the rate your going you'll never make it to uni
convinced that uni is a 'dream'...never to become real
and next moment
ur A levels results are out
u r walking the streets of nus/ntu/smu
and now ur main concern is getting thru uni...and cmming out wit a first class honour degree
amazing huh..how life has its automatic gradual progression
so to all those JC students
trust me
you'll make it..as long as u put in the effort
A's will be the worst exam any1 can sit for
but its not a hurdle you cant jump over
you'll have to struggle ...and jump and jump ...
over and over again
thats gauranteed
but with all that trying
your bound to get over it...
trust me
i know what im talking about
been there, done that
hold strong, and have faith
:)
espeacially my dear friend/sister
you'll do it....
and i'll be right next to you
together with HIM

the weekend

a very simple
a very sincere
weekened
i must say

saturday
was the JOY presentation
followed by bhajans
at moulmein
afterwhich
we all went to tekka
for teh aliah
(mine was ice milo)
tehn had no idea where toi go for dinner
gokul was closed
so some1 suggested komala vilas!
and yes
tats where we ended up!
so so fun
as usual...










us (just one table..the other tables not in foto) at KV



sunday
woke up early
went for prayers arranged by my dear grandma
rushed to class
made it just b4 the buses came
felt a tiny bit guilty tat i couldnt come early to help clean the premises
class was superb as usual
tho many didnt turn up
but tat just gave us an opportunity to have informla chats with the girls
i was exhausted
EXHAUSTED by the end of it
then went to temple to set up for bhajans
lay the sound system wires
carpets
etc
i was soooooo tired
i couldnt take it anymore....
left around 9 15
reached home
around 10 +
so so tired
but OH SO HAPPY!

the four of us after the movie

ya sumi...my cutest cousin...my mums side

abi dearie and me...after the movie...at swensons

ya sumis brother...prashant..i used to babysit him...he's growing up sooo fast

archu dearie and me...at PS toilet

mummy and me at my aunts place

just plainly me ...

there she is agian..i bet shes the prettiest in her cls... :)

i didnt take a photo of my uncle...so heres an older photo..him and his band...super cool...they were a really popular band in the 60's..my uncles the one in sunglasses..he used to be the guitarist and lead singer...but basically he can play any instrument....the keyboard, drumsets, violin...everything...

heres wat happened yest...went to watch harry potter again...went to swensons..then rushed home coz my uncle and aunt and their kids were cmming over and we were going out for dinner...they migrated to india 2 yrs ago..yes india...coz its easier to survive as a musician there than here...and the kids are having a great time...coz sch isnt stressful...and sooooo cute...they have a slight indian accent!..and they shake their heads when they talk...but character wise..they are still the same....

i remember i used to take care of prashant when he was in diapers...and now whaooo....he's 12 ... so fast..but still cute larrr...he sang the indian national anthem for us...its damn nice...sounds like some ganesha bhajan...and the night his sister was born, we had to look after him...still rmb those days were he was still soo little.

yasumi...has always been oh so pretty...i still rmb the time when i was babysitting her, and i scolded her nicely coz she didnt want to finish her food...those were the days...miss babysitting them...they are still soo adorable.

miss my uncle too..during christmas gatherings , he would lead us in all the carols, while he played the guitar and my older uncle played the violin...and we wld listen to him sing, (we atempted to sing along) and we would eat nice christmas pudding and cake....he seriously has a damn nice voice...he came to the temple once and led a class with the grp 3's when i was still in grp 3...but tat was a long time ago...oh and u know wat...he was asked to be a s'pore idol judge...but he was migrating already..so couldnt...it wld have been so fun watching him judge...ahhhhhhh....love them and miss them!!! :(

nat day gathering

ok like i said
its been a long time since we chilled
and just slack
absolutely no work involved

aunty nesams house
3 30 PM - 12 15 AM
the menu:
sardine curry
tahu sambal with fishball
(all veg of crs)
tempeh, tahu, beans
mangosteen, longans and rambutans
ice cream: choice of coffee, toffee, vanilla, chocolate
ppl: everyone..!!!!!!!!!.. :) :)

record breaking number of times one has laughed
courtesy of uncle sunthar of course
oh, and not forgetting the manicure session!
cant believe it...now we all have nice lovely nails...soo crazy and cute la they all

i missed a day like tat
i was soooo waiting to have such a day in a long while
now that the work has simmered down for awhile
im sure we can afford more days like tat
:)
and so last nite is treasured
the food was treasured
the jokes and laughter are treasured
but most of all
the people
are very much treasured

ok now off to watch harry potter again
ppl: me, abi, achu, arul anne, aunty sandra, manges, lakshana, pranavan, ramanan
YAY
this may sound like an ultimate bimbo, but who cares:
....rite now..... I LOVE MY LIFE!
:)

national day

yeap...todays our nations bdae...:)
but let me first recount the pre national day dayy, the pre preparations...

wayang kulit (shadow puppetry i/c) ????
errrrrr
the first day i arrived back in s'pore after the trip
my bro dsnt even greet me proparly...
wats one of the first sentence he put forth?
"okok, rekha, we've got lots of work to do"
harrrrrrr?????
wat work??
"i need you to take charge of the wayang kulit"
errrrrrrr
okayyyyyy
"i need you to make props for it...the puppets"
errrrr
okayyyyy
hahas...
so i was appointed by the director
cnt say no
after all
HE did say we must do more work

props
seemed like an ez task initially
started with the lion
went on to the sampan the kampong
then the british ship
and i thought i was done

sec 1 boys
the sec one boys were to be the ones dng the show
as in they would be behind the screen holding the puppets
so on sunday i met them
had to train them
and
OMGGGGGGGGG
is it just boys?
or is it just sec one boys
i secretly want to believe its boys
ahhhhhhhhhhhh
as in
AHHHHHHH
and so we started the training
and the trying
me together with manges

more props
it was too plain
so lots more props had to be done
i couldnt do it by myself
so had to recruit more ppl
i called like 20 ppl i tink
abi and achu, manges also helped call
5 ppl came to help
:)
and we did more props
then when everyone went home after dng
we tried the whole thing
again
and it was stll too plain
sth was missing
it needed more colour!
and mind you, this is the eve of teh programme
so at 12 midnite
a decision is made that more has to be done
so i had to go home and do it
1 am - 5am
rekha sits in here hall cutting and drawing out props
she took nearly 1 1/2 hrs on the island alone

family art time!
wed morning
wit having barely 4 hrs of slp
i face a situation
the props aernt finished!
and the performance is on like tat day!
rekha
being her
PANIC
and she starts work again
buttttt
shes got such lovely parents
both her mum and dad
sit down wit her
and help her
phew
thanks to them
it was almost finished
by the time she went to the temple at 3

the actual
wat can i say
i teared at the end of it all
the kids
were so so so good
and my wayng kulit boys
were amazing!
i should buy them chocolates
the dance girls
despite only having like 4 practices
were soooo sweet
and lovely
the older boys who did the chorale reading
they showed discipline and focusness completely thru their perfomance
the finale item ppl
made efforts to smile, sing along
and they looked absolutely beautiful
so so so proud of all of them
i was smiling like some mad person
i tell u
we can put up a real production already
oh and our multi media
take of my hat to hamma aka, vijaya aka, and abi
:) :)
looked sooooo good
with lots of thanks to the master of directors, the director of the universe
it was a splendid performance
a pay off to everyones intense hard work and love fr His work
:)

nat day itself
ok back to today
we are finally going to CHILL!
no work
absolutely no work
(apart from cooking)
just chill and chat
sth we all love to do
but havent done in a really long while
sathsanging! cant wait for that
yeap
a good way to end hardwork
of crs
HE'l be there
in his own way
and He'l be chilling a long with us
and acting invisible
as we talk about Him
YAY!
happy bdae s'pre!

TSPC

yeap...today was the scholarship ceremony...
it was ok
got pretty nervous ..
afraid that i would trip on my heels...
trip fall and die... in front of all those ppl
was interviewed by tamil murusu ... spoke in tamil
hehe
no lah
spoke in english
my parents and aunty sandra came :)
bumped into my sec 4 english teacher
well actually she found me
insisted that i go back to smss to teach
hmmmmm
see how ...
probably would want to go back there ...
left the ceremony around 5
went to eat
so so hungry
went to temple
theres sooo much to do tomoro
got to make new props for the nat day programme
i neeed heelppppp plssssss
any1 free?? 7 pm tomoro???
pls feel free to jump in :)
anw yar
im quite waiting for the national day hols
its been a long time since we just slacked and chilled
so looking forward to chilling all together and watching the parade
its just been work work and work for the past couple of months
tho its all good fun
a break is high in demand im guessing
and then a toast to the work
all in His name
:) cheers! :)

school :)

yeap
officially a student of NUS - FASS
went down todae with jivis
did our registration
got our matric card
(we look like convicts on it)
went for the CCA fair
otherwise known as the matric fair
we signed up for loads of stuff

module bidding also started todae
so we had to get that done
it so so stressful
and u dnt really know how to do it
no one really gives u instuctions
anw
ive done my bidding
and i placed bids for

PS1101E : political science : introduction to political science :
SC1101E : sociology : making sense of society
SE1101E : southeast asian studies : southeast asia - a changing region
EU1101E : History : making of contemporary europe

but ive got a bad sense tho, that im not really gng to get most of it...they're too high in demand,,oh well...we'll just leave it to Him....

so schools starting next week. im glad. sad that due to some complicated reasons, i cant take my literature modules this semester...sighness....
happy schs starting! triple yay!

the past couple of days since i got back...has been busy busy once again..preparing for uni in the afternoons....then of crs...more work to be done...so at the temple every nite... :) :)
still higly happy..hope im this high next week, month..years to come...

on this journey of joy ...

on this journey of joy ...
transformation is my goft of devotion ...

" O i feel like dancing
its foolishness i know
but when the world has seen the lord
they will dance with me
like im dancing now
...
hallelujah!
...
i could sing of your love forver
o lord
i could sing of your love forever"

yup....that simply describes my state of mind
its weird
how everything just stops in time
upon that gaze
upon that experience
of bountiful love
pure love
happiness peace bliss
dawns upon you
you want to think of nothing else
you wnat to experience noting else
you want nothing else
simply
that recurrance
of pure love

now i just hope
pray
and pray
that i dont slide back to where i left from
that i dont bring shame
to this testimony of love
that i dont disappoint
his glory

so ive got to work
work and more work
to remove any limits
ive placed upon work
work to fulfill
work to justify
work to transform
work
to present
my gift of devotion
...

"time waste is life waste"
no more wasting ime fr me!
so got to cut loads of stuff...
yeap
time must be used wisely now
time must be used to do His work only
for
"time waste is life waste"

JAI!